Love Is Our Resistance ♥

Friday, August 27, 2010

Dear bloggie,

              I have so many things to tell you. I wanna express all of my feelings out. Let me ask you a question. Who do you trust more? Do you trust your best friend more compare to your p.sis? Who is better in understanding you? Your best friend or your p.sis? I've been asking myself this question. I think, to me, I trust my best friend more than my p.sis. They know me much more better than anyone else. Examinations are coming in just a month time, I need to start to revise before it's too late. I told myself, I have to get good grades this time.

             I am so scared of you. Usually you don't say hi or greet me whenever you see me. Maybe yes? ONCE in a BLUEMOON! But why? All in the sudden you pop out and hug me? Isn't it ridiculous? HOW do you want me to react? And a minute or two later, I understand why you do that. Cause of that. You are purposely making me jealous? Does anyone has a motive whenever they do something? My brain cells are dead by thinking this kind of garbage!

             "Being single is what I always wanted till SPM is over. If I wanted to be in a relationship, I already have ages ago. If you're willing to wait for me, I wouldn't mind. (:. Let's have a talk, shall we? I miss the old times we have together. Avoiding is not the best solution." It has been 13 days. I know that I have to talk to you. But.. is just.. I dunno how to start the conver to solve the problem happening internal us. After talking to you, is seriously up to you, is your choice whether to continue talking to me. If not this problem can't be solved.

            What is the whole story actually about? I really want to know the whole story. Can someone just tell me the story? This is what I only wish for. But at the same time, I hate forcing people. I hate forcing people to do something which they tend not to do it or don't feel like doing it. I've been pretty emotional these two weeks. Maybe not just these two weeks. Perhaps, is more than that.

             Staring at someone for a long time, what does it mean? What's the first thing that pop in your mind? Giving an uncomfortable look just making me feeling uncomfortable.I was talking to another of my guy friend and it happened. My life is so complicated, so adventurous. At times, I wish, you never existed in my life. At times, I feel like I should not know you. Why must you do so many things to me?

Someone just tell me what should I do now,

I don't want to drip any single tear cause of you again.

Dear bloggie,

Send my regards to the God, to him. Protect my heart by locking it. I'll be waiting for you until the time is right. Right now, I should smile and stay the way it is. To lead a cheerful life, I should first let myself be cheerful. :)

♥our lips must always be sealed

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